Thursday, August 30, 2018

Conversation that (n)ever happened



“You need to be protected”
“From Who?”
“Yourself!”
“..?”
“There is no one outside that can harm you. You do it yourself from inside.”
“Why would I harm myself? I am not suicidal!!”
“Worse. You are indifferent to your self. You don’t love yourself.”
“I do. Everyone does.”
“Everyone, may be. But you don’t”
“So, how would you protect me? By making me love myself?”
“Even better. I would love you so much, for so long, that you wouldn’t ever have to think of what is missing”
“But, how can you get love back from the one who can’t, rather don’t love himself?”
“Why do I need the love back?”
“What do you mean?”
“I am not giving love, expecting it to return back to me.”
“I do not understand”
“I know”
“Then tell me...”
“I will love you so much that both of us are full to the brim, where neither of us feel the need to give back to each other”
“And… How are you planning to do that?”
“I don’t know. Never planned it before. This occurred to me just a flash moment ago”
“And you want to hang by it for the rest of your life?”
“Yes. And even after that. I believe in haunting.”
“I don’t think I deserve this love of yours.”
“How would that make any difference to me?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean that your thinking doesn’t alter my feeling”
“What if, one day, you are completely done with loving me?”
“That day, nay, that moment, my existence will be an illusion. A farce”
“Your life doesn’t exist to fill mine”
“Yes. I know that and I respect my life for that”
“Then, what are you going to do with yours once you have no more love to give me?”
“I would then take a deep breath and that would create a gulpful of love”
“And…”
“And I would give that to you. One gulp of love at a time”
“You will be tired”
“No. I will be alive”
“What if, I die before you?”
“Then you will die before me.”
“Yes. Then what shall happen to your love?”
“It keeps on.”
“Onto where?”
“You”
“But I am not there, no more!”
“But, I do.”
“What if, you die before me?”
“You would still be alive with my love”
“You are persistent and stubborn”
“You are lovely and irresistible”
“What if we both die together?”
“Then we shall be in love forever and ever”

“I love you”
“I know. I love you too.”
“I know that.”
“I know that you know.”

Monday, March 5, 2018

End of the endings

Now that I know, how it ends,
always the closure and nowhere bends;
all those delicate bindings it cruelly rends,
we all know, but ignore how it always ends.

Raking open the old wounds those it never mends,
and none can harm it, it always fends;
it ravenously devours but never lends,
we all know, but lie 
how it always ends.




Saturday, June 27, 2015

I, sigh..

















"No time to look behind;Nothing left to peer beyond
Stuck to the stained rags of bodies with no magic wand.

Nothing to hide and nothing to give;
sighing out with the thought "did i ever live"

no gratitude or kindness, nothing left to defile;
Everything's done with no remorse & deliberate vile

Life was led in arrogant smugness and myth;
Pray, let there be mercy, at least, in death"

Friday, June 26, 2015

Long Life, baby!!

When he doesnt count it,time runs faster into the hole;
And when he longs for it to roll, its stuck like a chewy gum to the sole.

Am I turning old and senile, he always fears;
for the days tumble into months and then to years.
But, hey, age is just a damn number; he often hears.

One day, he softly whispered, with his fingers in her hand;
what keeps us together this long and where is that magic wand ?
She gave him a toothless grin and shown him her finger..
      ...that´s shining with Tanishq Forever platinum Love Band!!!





:´(


The hand of an unknown monkey at testing facility, grasping the side of the trash can after they discarded her for dead.